*sighs* How to begin this…

“Why have flashbacks and nightmares when you can have it in reality”

“My intuition told me that I was making a loaded choice, didn’t think it would be like THAT”

“Working through my past and I see it in the flesh 15 feet away”

Hmm… anyways, I’ll do the detached version…

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Squirrels and flashbacks

Don’t you hate it when there’s something bouncing around in the back of your head but you can’t seem to quite capture and understand it… then it hits you out of the blue… and you feel like a complete idiot for not seeing it before?

I kept wondering why, after all this time, I felt the need to prove myself… to prove someone else’s nasty insinuations were wrong. Then I realized it was something I’d gone through before.

The previous post gives a basic rundown of what happened when I was 15, but until I started getting flashbacks again… I’d forgotten some of the emotional twisting he used to do.

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Tribute – Angel


Age: 24
Gender: Female
Location: B.C., Canada

I met Angel a few years ago. A mutual friend was dropping her off while picking me up, and she decided she could spare the time to hang out with us. She gave me her number as she was being dropped off for the second time.

I’d like to say I called her, but I didn’t. I chickened out. Luckily she’s stubborn and pushed to have me in her life.
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Tribute – Aaron


Age: 24
Gender: Male
Location: North Carolina, USA

I vaguely remember a time when I didn’t know him, but it seems like a lifetime or two ago. I met Aaron (like so many people) in P1… he was flirting with all the girls in the room. After countless times goofing around in the room, we started PMing each other.

Aaron’s one of the few people who understands me when I say I’m feeling both moody and numb.
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